Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Last Tuesday: Snow, black ice, teaching and Branden's observation day

The forecast last Monday said Chiba would snow that night. I took the advice, made sure I had a couple days worth of food. But wasn't going to hold my breath too much because I know a lot of the time, it fizzles out and it won't snow. Just get very very close to snowing then falling short. However true to the forecast it did snow. So last Monday, I sent Branden and Noah to school. Noah went to swim club, it was so freezing cold temp wise but not a flake of snow to be had. Branden went to Kumon and no snow. Now it certainly did feel like snow was in the air though. The sky grew gray though it's been gray all week then it grew an almost whitish color. And stayed that way. We drew the blinds around dinner time. The boys took showers and then a bath. I took a shower after. We did the night time books before bed which is always so much fun and the snuggles and cuddles that go with. And as I walked downstairs, Noboru said, big huge snow flakes are falling from the sky. Hmmm, @_@ so I looked out the big sliding window in the living room and sure enough snow was falling. Finally, at last at last! I was happy to see it snow. I look forward to snow all winter long. However this time the timing was just bad. I had work the following day. And wasn't exactly looking forward to driving on sheets of black ice. : ( Anyway, it is, what it is. And it happens when it happens. : ) Sometimes you just have to roll with the punches right? So, Tuesday morning we woke up to this. Pretty typical snow fall for our area in Chiba. Not huge amounts of snow, like how I grew up in Colorado. But still very pretty. I woke up at 5:30am, yep I am now fully adjusted on my morning routine time now. : ) I had a cup of coffee, read my emails. And around 5:50am started breakfast for the boys. Easy cheese omelets and toast. And 1 instant packet each of cinnamon roll oatmeal. They ate at the table, then watched morning cartoons. Branden then went upstairs and got ready for school. I went upstairs did my makeup, my hair and got dressed. I also made an obento for Noah. And made sure he got dressed. Noboru took Branden to school Tuesday morning since I was going to be leaving soon, and I was doing last minute getting Noah ready for yochien things with him. Meanwhile, my teaching partner and I were to meet up at the hoikuen at 9am. It's an hours drive away on a normal day. However because of the snow and Noboru came home saying the roads were all black ice. I left 30 minutes earlier. I left around 7:28am. That way if the roads were bad, or traffic were bad, I wouldn't be late. Here is a pic of Noboru outside last Tuesday morning walking the backyard looking for mole hills. with cup of coffee in hand.
So, I'm now at the hoikuen, I arrived at 8:43am, good thing I did leave early because the roads were black ice for 80% of the way there. On the sunny streets it was starting to melt, but many areas all the way there are shaded. So, I was glad I planned ahead some. So, I am waiting in my car. We usually meet in the parking lot, my teaching partner and I. 9am rolls around and no teaching partner. Hmm. I'm patient. So, I waited in my car with the heater on. 9:05, still no teaching partner. This is not like her. Now I'm starting to worry a litttle. Just then my cell rings, her name shows up. I answer, and she says she's stuck in traffic and will be 10 minutes late. There was a huge car accident up the road. The staff at the school know I'm clearly there and in my car, the parking is right across the street and when they open the curtains upstairs in the auditorium where we teach, to let the sun in, one of the hoikuen teachers waved at me already that morning. : ) I waved back. Anyway she finally got there safe and sound which was nice. We taught both lessons, and I must say we rocked it! I've been teaching at these 2 hoikuens for 6 months now and I love it. I like that I don't have to plan the lessons from scratch (sorry everyone's different but I like the ease this way). I think the lessons are great, very thorough, we teach them tons of things, the kids have a blast, they learn heaps. And leave with huge smiles on their faces. They all know me, the kids, I give them all 5 on the way out, some I give 10. A few of the boys I give them the knuckle hand explosion thing too. LOL. I in all seriousness, have a complete and absolute blast. I guess I just have the right personality to be a kindy English teacher, the kids are so fun to teach! I love it. And the money is excellent. I even get the hoikuen sensei's into it too. One sensei at the other school loves our class so much. She's one of the loudest in the class. : ) when I say something and the class repeats I always hear that particular sensei. I know they enjoy the class too. I may eventually start to teach lessons at my home in the future and then plan the lessons by myself etc and I'm fine with it. But for now, I'm just really enjoying these 2 times a month, lessons we give. It doesn't take too much time and I really do have a ball with it. I like interacting with them.
Anyway after our class, we went to the office and had hot green tea with the principal. This is the school where the principal loves America, has all sorts of books etc and so we talked for a good 45 minutes before leaving. Oh yes, My teaching partner went to South Korea over the Christmas/New Year's vacation. She kindly brought me back this omiyage (presents) red chili pepper seaweed and a face mask made from snails. She said it's all the rage now days. I still haven't used it yet. I just can't wrap my head around putting snail slime on my face yet. Anyway if I try it, I'll let you know. : ) I think though that was very thoughtful of her to bring me something and I thanked her. And I will build up the courage to try it.
It is supposed to leave you with super clear and radiant skin.
Still, Tuesday. Up the hill, Noah and I went to Branden's observation day. It was so cold walking up the hill, the wind went right through you. And wearing my work pants it felt painful, the wind was so strong and cold. But I will be here for you kiddo! And for what it's worth, I would have not worked that day if Branden would have let me know ahead of time. He had the note in his randoseru and didn't show us, and when my work emailed me asking if I was free that day, we checked the calendar and nothing was written down. So, that's why I said yes. 3 days later Branden said, whoops forgot to give you this note and by that time, it was already too late to cancel with the school. So last Tuesday was a busy day for me. Which was fine. As long as I made it to everything I was supposed to do. Then it's all good.

Branden's sensei.
We are still talking about sweet potatoes. : )
One of Branden's Winter diary's, hung up with the rest of the classes. These 2 pics are, one of Branden and Noah at the pool area at the Hilton over Christmas and the other is of Branden sliding down the slide. So many mother's came to read this and see his pictures. It was cute. His teacher loved it too.
Another thing to use sweet potatoes for, make stamps out of them.
Top 3 places sweet potatoes come from in Japan. #2 is Chiba and #3 is Ibaraki, and we live right along the border of both, so no wonder we talk tons about sweet potatoes here. : )
Did he grow up or did he grow up? If you've been reading for a while, you'll know this kiddo is Genki-kun! He is such a sweet boy! He went to yochien with Branden. I give him a ride to our housing community at least once a week. He's a very good kid.
I get smiles and waves from all the kids at our local elementary school! They all know me. Know who I am. I'm always nice and friendly, so I always get tons and tons of smiley faces from these kids in return.
The 3rd grade teacher for the #2 class. Also known as my fellow yochien mom friend too. And mom whose gone to Costco with us before. I hope like heck she's Noah's teacher in April! I seriously hope.
And that smiling sensei is the Yuka-sensei, Branden's former 1st and 2nd grade sensei. All the teachers switch classes this year. Who will Noah get this year? Who will Branden get?
Jump rope!

And into the gymnasium Noah and I went.
Hi Branden!
In this door was a haunted house! The Ringu and the Juon and stuff. Lots of scary characters in there!
Branden chatting away. And that was what happened in our neck of the woods last Tuesday. Some snow, some black ice. Teaching 2 classes, picking up Noah, getting the both of us up the hill and into the elementary school we went, then I chit chatted with so many kids, a handful of mom friends and quite a few teachers and most importantly to show up for Branden, he was so happy. Then, Noah and I headed home. I prepped for dinner. Put my sweatpants, sweatshirt on, pony tail in my hair, and then Noah and I went to pick up Branden and bring him home. Branden got started with homework and finished. Meanwhile I finished making supper. Phew, long day...long day. The weather dropped again that night. And I knew I was done teaching for January. I have my schedule for February already and I'm only working 1 day this month. Which again is nice. I'm super busy with the shaon kai at the moment anyway. Plus with taking care of the house and laundry etc. Anyway that was last Tuesday for our family. : )

Saturday, January 28, 2012

The Ami Premium Outlet Mall

Last Sunday in our neck of the woods, our little area was having it's 3rd straight day of rain. And the weather, last Sunday? Bitterly cold and heaps of rain. However we had a plan, to go to the closest outlet mall nearest our house and look for jeans and sneakers for Branden.
And to Gap we went. They had nil when it came to boys jeans. But they had a puff vest Branden has been wanting. He had a yellow one years ago that Noah's wearing now that he's the right age to fit it. And Branden has been asking for a vest. And they had them here at a cheap price.
Coats 1900 yen and puff vests 1200 yen.
After finishing up all our shopping, we went and bought some hot tea for the boys from the vending machine and we each had a can of hot coffee from the vending machine also. And we went into a shop that sells jelly filled donuts. So we sat and had some donuts (cinnamon apple filled, strawberry filled and blueberry filled) and coffee, the boys had hot tea while we waited for the jeans to be altered at Edwin. When they were done, we left the mall and headed home. And had dinner. We had crock pot chili con carne (Texas type chili, think sort of like Wendy's ; ) It was so good.
Gap, Adidas and Edwin.
We also bought Noah 1 hat for 300 yen. It was too good a deal to pass up and too cute a hat.
Branden's reversible vest. 1 size bigger because he wears these in winter time with sweatshirts and turtle necks etc, which means kids are bulkier in Winter, because of the extra clothing layers. So the bigger size was the right idea. The price excellent honestly.
Bright happy orange.
1 pair of jeans.
1 pair of sneakers.
That's it, not so much. But glad we found what we were looking for.
A quick try on to see if the length was perfect, a little extra room to grow, so perfect. Anyway, that's what we were up to last Sunday. : )

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Last week, Noboru's birthday, the mole in the backyard, and lunch with friends

Last Monday, while the boys were at Kumon. By the way you know how Noah's swim day has to switch every few months, well he is now swimming on Monday's now. So Mondays after regular school and yochien, things are quite busy here Monday's. Noah is exchanging his homework every Monday now for this month only and his Kumon teacher knows. But he's there Thursday. So, after school, they both go to Kumon, Branden stays. Noah exchanges his work and then Noboru or I will go to swim club. And the other one of us will be near by for when Branden is done with Kumon. So Monday's are going to be a bit hectic this month, but it's okay, it won't be that way, for too long and it's not forever. We look forward to when his swim day changes to Friday. The rest of our week was quiet. Anyway last Monday, I made this. We had 2 roasted whole chickens. Mashed potatoes, stuffing and gravy. You know, I wish I would have had time to make a salad or some steam veggie. But Monday's are always the hardest days to be back to the weekday routine. And with the sad news Branden's classmate was going through. Besides the Kumon and swim schedule, I'm actually glad I managed to put this together. So, I'm not going to be hard on myself. I think I did okay, considering last Monday was a real stinker of a day. So not too bad. : )
See this weather. 73 degrees inside, and the humidity freakishly dry inside our home. Anyway, Tokyo was hit with snow last week. Lucky them. : ) I love the snow, so I look forward to it. Anyway 32 F is freezing so while it was extremely cold all week last week, technically it wasn't freezing outside. It rained all day Friday, Saturday and Sunday for us here in Chiba. Well our part at least. But not a flurry of snow. But yeah during the days, during the nights, weather wise it was superly cold outside. Felt freezing...almost, but not quite. : )
Tuesday, I cleaned house, I worked out, got ready for the next days lessons. Did laundry and baked 2 cheesecakes. The boys have just school, nothing else after school Tuesdays and Wednesdays and Fridays. It was nice to come home and not run someplace else. : ). Wednesday, last week, I worked. Ran to the store after work and swung around and picked up Noah from yochien. January 18th, last Wednesday was also, Noboru's birthday, he turned 40. It's also my good friend Rumi-san's birthday as well. I know her husband is doing tanshinfunin (meaning her husband is working and living for the most part elsewhere), and she has 3 children, she is very considerate of others and kind and I'm lucky to have her as my friend and neighbor. I know....sometimes a birthday can get lost in the shuffle. So, just in case.... I didn't want that to happen to my friend, so I went to Fujiya after picking up Noah from yochien and we picked 5 slices of cakes for her and her 3 kids to enjoy. I figured, if I get 5, she could enjoy 2 slices and have first pick, since I picked an assortment. Anyway, it made me happy to be able to do that for my friend even if it was a small gesture, I tried. Everyone should feel thought of for their birthday, I think. : ) Birthdays are special.
Still Wednesday. By now I have both Branden and Noah home. And while Branden worked on his homework and Noah did his Kumon homework at the kitchen table, I started making the gratin potatoes from scratch. Peeling and slicing the potatoes here.
Making my roux (sp?)
Everyone like I said deserves to feel special or thought of on their birthday. And for Noboru, his favorite thing to eat on the planet is spiral ham. So, I made him a ham, I baked in the oven. Baked homemade gratin potatoes, green beans, we also had crescent rolls. He didn't get off work until 8pm and wouldn't be home until 8:30pm. And knowing it was a school night, the boys and I ate before. The boys needed to take showers and get ready for the next day.
The boys eating and enjoying the meal, we made for daddy.
Do you see, I placed and wrapped Noboru's plate on the table. Aww, I got it all ready for him. : ) These are the bath powders we're using this month. The one we used last month was the same type of brand, but was shea butter it smelled awesome. I should buy that one again. This time we're using peach and the other is green tea. We take a few baths a week, besides our nightly showers and enjoy the long hot soak in our tub. Noboru and the boys always have fun splashing in there and sometimes just the boys splash alone when Noboru's got a wonky shift. But so fun in Winter. I like soaking in there on the weekends. : )
I baked Noboru 1 cheesecake, however I had a lot of filling leftover, so I ended up baking him 2 instead. The other was a tad less, but it was still great. The one in front cracked a bit but the one in the back didn't.
Noboru's favorite cake is hands down cheesecake. When Noboru got home last Wednesday, the boys had already had their cheesecake and brushed their teeth. I waited on the dessert. We all greeted him..happy birthday daddy the boys yelled out. I said happy birthday. Noboru came in. Said, smells so good in here. The boys got tucked in after they said their happy birthdays, and good nights. And then I sat at the table with Noboru. he ate his dinner. He loved it! I mean he really loved it. And then I started the hot water pot and made him a cup of coffee and sliced him a big fat piece of cheesecake and put some blueberry filling on top. We enjoyed dessert together. We talked about his day. I talked about my day teaching at the hoikuen. Told him how Branden and Noah were doing, the homework they'd done. He read Branden's renrakucho and stamped it. And then he took a shower and soaked in the tub. I made sure Noboru had a fantastic birthday and plus we did take him to the restaurant the weekend before.
In other news last week. The moles are back! Now, I'm not trying to make a mountain out of a mole hill here. ; P But, they're all over our housing community. All our neighbors have mole hills in their yards too. Even the grandma next door.
You probably can't see it, but there is another mole hill behind the middle swing behind the bark area. Noboru is fed up. So he has been researching once again how to deal with these moles. He has now seen every "catch a mole" video on youtube. : ) And he bought 3 traps last night. He says he is going to get them! I however think they're pretty fast. So we'll see. Who will win, who will lose? Noboru or the mole? I'll let you know. : )
You probably can't see the rain in this picture. But it was raining. And yeah...those mole hills.

All in all, last week. There was good and bad, and happy and sad. Same as everyone. If I ever met any of you and sat down for coffee, we'd probably have a whole heap to talk about. There's the good and funny and hilarious, like these moles. There's the sad and real life things, like Branden's classmate. There's birthdays. And PTA meetings and work. Swim clubs and Kumon. So much as always going on.

Last Friday, I had another shaon kai meeting. If you include me, 9 of us were there total. The weather was super cold, rainy and gray. We met at 8:55am at the library, in the same place as the library there's meeting rooms you can book for free. We got one and met there. The umbrellas are done (one of the kids presents for graduation), we opened the box for them, last Friday. The boys are blue and the girls are pink, the kids names are on them. That's cool! So one job complete! We also got the seating arrangements made last Friday. They want to sit the kids near their closest friends. So, the 8 mother's said...obviously Noah needs to sit near Hikaru and vice versa! @_@ yes, I know, I said, best friends ne~. : ) They're best friends. So, I can tell you, we will be seated at the penguin table for the shaon kai, 3 kids will be sitting there, Sakura-chan, Noah and his very best friend, Hikaru and us parents. Noah will be escorting the older sensei, the granny aged helper sensei, Hiroko-sensei? Is that her name? I'd have to go look at my shaon kai notes. Sorry, if her name is different I'll fix it later. We have every single last detail planned. Who is presenting the flowers, who is presenting the presents. Who is an escort for the sensei's, like I said, Noah will escort the 1 older sensei at our yochien and walk her into the place. She thinks the world of Noah, I'm sure she'll be thrilled.

Also last Monday, I got an email from the Jogo-san. My very good friend. She said, do you wanna go to lunch after the shaon kai meeting on Friday? We're thinking of going to such and such restaurant. I emailed back and said for sure! So, after the meeting had ended on Friday around 11am-ish the 8 of us, 1 mother could not come, she had something at her older son's elementary school to do. We all totally understood. So instead of 9 of us, 8 of us headed to the restaurant. It was a very nice restaurant. In fact when I mentioned to my teaching partner the restaurant we were going to on Friday, she said...ohhh fancy! : ) LOL. So, yeah we went to lunch. The Jogo-san, Sera's mom. Yukina-chan's mom. Mei-chan's mom. Aoiki-san. Leggings mom (she's so nice, so short and cute and wears the cutest leggings everyday different ones of course. : ) And then mom, who I can never remember her name mom. Gomen ne~ (I'm sorry) : ) This was a buffet. 1800 yen a person, or was it 1850. We enjoyed it. From 11am-ish to 1:50pm. We ate, chatted. Laughed, ate some more. They had salads, tempura, vegetable curry. Pasta, many many things steamed pork buns, desserts, icecream. And the drink we had, I asked leggings mom, what's this? : ) She said...fruits vinegar. Every other mom was picking it, I said, why the heck not. So, I had a glass of fruits vinegar, and you know what....it was very good. If I were to guess, I'd say 95% fruit, 5% vinegar, in fact if they didn't mention the vinegar you would barely notice it. But it was delicious, I had 2 glasses. We did the whole...what color randorseru did you pick question we have been asking for the past 3 month's now. Neither Sera nor Noah got black. We talked about graduation. Entrance ceremony's. These ladies are my friends. I am sure some we won't see as often. I know the Jogo-san and I will remain friends even after our kids stop yochien and whether our kids will attend the same elementary or not. Sera's mom and I will leave this yochien together and will continue our son's (meaning Noah and Sera's) education together at the same elementary school. So our journey is barely beginning together. : ) Anyway, I had fun last Friday with my girlfriends. We paid and left and picked up our kids. I pulled into the yochien parking lot with 2 minutes to spare (phew) same with the other 7 mom's. This restaurant is like 2-3 minutes away at the most from our yochien. It was Friday. Last Friday. So glad the weekend was here. So glad to just be able to veg out for the weekend. The only plan we had last weekend was to go to the outlet mall. Which we went yesterday.

Anything else to add? Hmm. American Idol started for us last week. Meaning the folks in the US or those of us with Slingbox. It was a good episode. I think this is going to be a good season for American Idol hopefully. What else...I watched the Drew Peterson movie on Lifetime last night. They'd been showing previews for that all week. It was a good made for TV movie. Real story of course. What else, have I been watching. Dance Mom's, I've been watching that a lot too. Goodness that dance coach is tough. Simon Cowell is like a kitten compared to the things she says. : ) She told one mom flat out..your kids not all that bright! @_@

Anyway, what did we do last week? Many things, Mostly stayed home. Except the 1 day I worked. 2 days the boys did their Kumon and Noah swam. But the rest they stood home and nobody in the neighborhood played all week last week. I think the weather and just many of us parents in our town just wanted to keep our kids closer to us last week, and hug them a little tighter. And our kids all wanted to stay closer to home too.

What's on the agenda this week? I work once this week. I also have Branden's observation day and I also have Noah's observation day too. I have no shaon kai meeting this week, but I do on Feb 3rd. I also have the last "mother's luncheon" this Friday. We'll be up in Narita for this one. Last Friday's lunch was just lunch with friends. Not even all the shaon kai was invited, it was just us core members meaning the main/head/lead shaon kai members, which I am one. But this Friday it's for the whole class of last year students mom's. I'm looking forward to lunch this Friday, The Jogo-san and I are riding up in "leggings mom's car" so the 3 of us will be chit chatting all the way to Narita this coming Friday to meet the rest of the mothers for lunch.

Anything else, Noah's desk is being delivered next Sunday. Seems they brought it Sunday while we were at the outlet. Absolutely figures, the one day we're out! And they can't redeliver it for a full week because of the size. @_@ They didn't inform us what date it would be coming so we had no idea, but now we know ahead of time. So, next Sunday, it is. We're ready. : ) And every day this week, on the days I was not here Noboru was totally here, so we overlapped here all week waiting for the desk. Even Saturday we waited. The one day we finally all left, on a Sunday even, they finally deliver it! Totally figures really! : )

Also, this March we are planning to head to Osaka. We haven't had the chance to visit Noboru's family there since last May or June. So we'd like to go, but we'll see if Noboru can get the time off from work. If he gets the time off, we will be going for sure, we all really want to go. It all depends on his work schedule though. But we're looking forward to going. Alrighty, you know how my Monday's are. : ) So, I better motor.

Oh yes, I almost forgot. We got a notice in the keiranban 2 weeks ago. It said, the crows are getting out of hand, eating the trash and littering said trash when they tear open the garbage bags on trash day. So they are letting us all know they are going to shoot them. American crows are small-ish/medium sized. They could be scared. The crows in Japan are super sized and not afraid of anything around our parts! : ) So anyway...yeah the hunters are going to go on a certain day and try their best to wipe them out. @_@ Between Noboru hunting for moles in the backyard and the hunters hunting down the crows. Should be interesting. : )

Anyway that's it for sures this time. Motoring this time for sure now. : )

Branden's classmate

Brandens' classmate's mother died last week. It completely knocked the wind out of me, if I'm to be honest with you. She wasn't someone we knew for years and years. She was someone we never even met. Let me explain. Do you remember, about 6 months or so ago, when I said, Branden has a new classmate. He just moved here from Tokyo. The new boy. So yes, while we did not enter the ichinensei together or bump into each other at observation day. Sad is still sad. And it's times like these, when you realize, wow life is short. I know that sounds cliché. But yes at times like this, you really realize wow, it could all just be over in a snap. No one is promised tomorrow.

What we're guessing is, she probably had cancer and the family knew it didn't look good and they moved closer to either set of grandparents so when the time comes, they'd be ready. That's what we're guessing. As I said, nobody really ever got the chance to meet her. Her son, yes I've seen him weekly, he lives in our same housing community and he was pictured on the cooking sweet potato day muffin post on Branden's last observation day. So, yeah I see that little boy often.

She was only 31-32 years old. Nobody can get over just how young she was, when she died last week. Everyone in our town was greatly shocked and saddened. When the karainban (sp?) was first past around last Saturday saying a death in our housing community occurred, we at that time had no clue it was Branden's classmate's young mother. We wrongly assumed it was an elderly grandma who had lived a very full and happy life. Not that I'm saying any age or time is the right time to go, you know what I mean.

On Monday, of last week, long after Branden was at school Noboru's and also my keitei/cell went off. We get electronically beeped at his school when he arrives and when he leaves the school. We also get beeped messages/updates from the school. However last Monday, the message said...so and so's mom from the 4th grade #1 class had died. Same class as Branden. To off set the cost of the funeral, they would like to collect 500 yen from each student to help chip in and help pay for that cost (this was on our cell email last Monday). I thought that was a great idea. So, Noboru and I talked about this/her passing last Monday quite a bit. He was saddened and I was very sad. When I picked up Branden and it was time for both the boys to go to Kumon last Monday. We drove past the only place to hold a rosary in our town. And the huge sign that stood at the ceremony place had the boys last name on it. It was a very sad reminder.

Branden was quite sad that his friends mother passed away. We talked about this very subject a lot last week. The boys both of them asking questions and such. Branden just felt such great sorrow for his friend. Branden told me, I wish T's (I won't say his first name on here) mom didn't have to die. I said, "I wish that too baby." I think the whole town was just sad.

I told Branden and Noah. No kid under age 18 should ever have to be without their parent due to a death. But sometimes things just turn out that way unfortunately. But that kids need their parents to guide them and teach them and love them. For the boy, I am most saddest because, he will miss his mother forever and ever. When it is observation day he will be thinking. I wish my mother was here. When it's undokai, and he's just won the big race and he looks out in the crowd of faces, he'll be thinking, I wish my mother was here. When it's his birthday and he thinks about those special cakes or presents that only a mother would let him have or get away with having. And he no longer has her, he'll be thinking I wish my mother was here. When he wakens from a nightmare and she is no longer there and she can no longer comfort him and stroke his hair and say it's okay, mommy's here. Yes he will think...I wish my mother was here. When he has those 2-3 obento meals that need to be made at the elementary school and he's making it all by himself and hoping like heck that he's done a good job, bless his heart. And remembers his mom's obentos she used to make him, yes he will think I wish my mother was here. When he graduates the 6th grade in a few years, or attends his entrance ceremony for junior high, yes he will again think I wish my mother was here. When he's sick with the flu and needs that TLC that only a mother would do. Or when it's raining and snowing and he's walking all the way home, when all the other mom's in this neighborhood are driving their kids back in the safety and warmth of their cars and he's shivering walking down the street and he's probably thinking to himself..I really really wish *my* mother was here. All those days, I think about. Perhaps I'm too overly sensitive but those are the times he'll long for her. And when he decides what career he will have and he'll want to share it. Or when he finds his future wife and falls deeply and madly in love..he won't have his mother there to share that with either. When his children are born and that twinkle in their eye or their smile reminds him of his mother, he'll be thinking of her. He'll be missing her forever. You know what I mean here. There won't be a single freaking day that passes that he won't absolutely ache. There won't be a day that he won't long and wish for her to be with him.

And from the other point. From the mothers perspective. Since I am a mother. It must have been hardest for her. To know she was leaving her boys (yes there were 2 sons). Knowing what she'd miss. Miss them growing up, her whole life's happiness is wrapped up in her boys, I'm sure. Mine is. Knowing and probably worrying herself sick knowing she couldn't be there no matter how badly she wanted to be. Her knowing she'd have to leave her babies before her time, before they were ready! Must have been absolute hell for her.

This to me, was just the saddest thing ever. My heart ached all week, last week.... just thinking about this family. Our whole family ached for that family last week.

I know in a months time maybe people will forget about this boy, but I won't. And if he needs an obento for any special day, I'd love to make him one. It would be my pleasure and my honor. But again, we aren't supposed to mention a thing. Branden's sensei told the class on the 1 day the boy was absent, he was at school Monday and Wednesday, he only missed the cremation day which was last Tuesday. She told the class do not bring up his mother dying, do not mention a thing. So no matter how badly you'd like to pay your respects or condolences, you can't. Which that just makes me even sadder. He lives in the same housing community as I do. So, I would 100% be able and willing to give him a ride home any day he needs one. Just anything. If this kid ever needs me for anything. I am here and I mean that.

I'm not going to allow comments for this one, and I know you will understand why. There's just nothing really to comment about. It happened to a lovely boy in our town last week. It gutted me, it gutted my family, it hit Branden really hard, it's his pal, his play and hang out friend and classmate. It gutted our whole town. I debated greatly about writing this. But I just have to. I needed to get it out. Anyway, I don't want to bum anyone out. It just was an absolutely horrible thing to happen. She was too young to die and they are too young to be without their mother. Tomorrow is observation for Branden. I know the boy will be looking at the back of the class at us parents back there. And probably thinking and missing her. I better just end this here. Before I write any more and this just gets sadder and sadder. Sorry. Just had to let it out though. Deep breath.